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About Me Member Angelina Jolie Fetishist AngelicPhantom20/Female/New Zealand Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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Oh its always good news

Tue Nov 17, 2009, 5:03 AM
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: My heart pushing out my blood
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Bourbon
'Beware falling back into bad habits, it's easier than you know'.

God...I had no idea how much I missed a good sharpened knife.
Its so easy.

That blood is so...beautiful. Its the only thing about me that is beautiful. Its the only thing about me that is of any worth or use.
When I die I want to donate everything of me that can be used. At least someone will get a better life from things I can't seem to fully appreciate myself.

Oh dear...not sleeping...cutting again...not eating much.
Hmmm feeling a little bit of deja vu

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  • Current Residence: the universe that orbits handily around my brain
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: L
  • Interests: Taekwon-do, Deviantly drawing and writing
  • Favourite movie: where to start (and stop)
  • Favourite band or musician: Dresden Dolls, Marylin Manson, good ole linkin park...
  • Favourite genre of music: alternative/rock
  • Favourite artist: Dali
  • Favourite poet or writer: Yo
  • MP3 player of choice: lmao my own one - It has all my songs on it lol
  • Shell of choice: Scallop
  • Wallpaper of choice: a wallpaper that you can climb
  • Skin of choice: a fuzzy one
  • Favourite game: Final Fantasy X
  • Favourite gaming platform: ps2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Cosmo and Wanda and Timmy
  • Personal Quote: Crazy is in the mind of the beholder
  • Tools of the Trade: blood sweat and tears. (sometimes literally)

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Comments


:iconainohimitsu:
How are you? Haven't seen any journals or submissions from you. Hope you're doing alright. I miss you. :hug:

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If home is where the heart is, then my heart is in many places...~Just the words of one lowly, lovelorn, lost poet
:iconangelicphantom:
miss you too butterfly

doing ok. living i guess

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realise. real eyes. real lies.

'how can i want to die when i never wanted to live in the first place'.

crazy is in the mind of the beholder. (copyrighted to me!!! i made up that quote!!!! :evillaugh:
:iconainohimitsu:
This is a text I just sent to a friend because he asked me if I was okay. I first asked him if he wanted absolute honesty, and he said yes.

This is the text:

"No i'm not ok, im tired of tellin' ppl 'im fine' 'im here' or whatever when im not ok. 'i'm here' but it doesn't feel like enough anymore. I'm here, doin' what? Livin' half-assed, that's what. I'm tired, i'm bored, i'm feelin' close to dead or a machine. I'm just here.. And empty. And am afraid to b full, to be somethin' more than here, somethin' burning with life. That's how i rly feel n that's how i've felt 4 a while."

His answer was to try something new.

I have know idea what that means... well I do and I don't...

I wonder if sex is the answer... Hn.

Must be a guy thing. Who knows.

Anyway, there was a point to all that. I wish I could say I was living...

On the flip side, I'm planning to get a tattoo just to commemorate you. I think you're gonna love it. :D

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If home is where the heart is, then my heart is in many places...~Just the words of one lowly, lovelorn, lost poet
:iconangelicphantom:
*hugs you so tight*
God Butterfly, I know to the letter what you mean in that text.

It hurts so bad to live like that...but stopping it is also really hard.

Something new is always good though and sex can be a fun something new to do. Not something to do just for something to do though. *cough, I'm a hypocrite cough*

Omg...I am now dying of curiosity...when are you going to get your tatt? And when is the absolute soonest I can see what it is?

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realise. real eyes. real lies.

'how can i want to die when i never wanted to live in the first place'.

crazy is in the mind of the beholder. (copyrighted to me!!! i made up that quote!!!! :evillaugh:
:iconjedi-gemstone:
Hey sweetie hope your doing well!! xxx

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Solitare is like life, just because you have all the ace's, all the right things, doesn't mean you'll necesarily win.
~Self-InjuryClub
*EverybodyPlush
:iconainohimitsu:
Happy early birthday!!!! -decided to tell you that before she forgot- Hope you are well. ;)

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If home is where the heart is, then my heart is in many places...~Just the words of one lowly, lovelorn, lost poet
:iconangelicphantom:
Love you...I did get this message...thank you

--
realise. real eyes. real lies.

'how can i want to die when i never wanted to live in the first place'.

crazy is in the mind of the beholder. (copyrighted to me!!! i made up that quote!!!! :evillaugh:
:iconainohimitsu:
You're welcome. :) Hope it was wonderful birthday for you.

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If home is where the heart is, then my heart is in many places...~Just the words of one lowly, lovelorn, lost poet
:iconoutdriving08:
Boo

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Reality is what you make it.
Realty is just a job.
:iconangelicphantom:
Wahey!!!
Heehee hello

--
realise. real eyes. real lies.

'how can i want to die when i never wanted to live in the first place'.

crazy is in the mind of the beholder. (copyrighted to me!!! i made up that quote!!!! :evillaugh:

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